The sudden comeback

i realised that i am not able to live without penning my thoughts down.

its been almost six months since i started working. Sometimes i wonder how long it will take someone like me to succeed in the business i am in. I really want to be better and be much more driven but sometimes it gets really tough. I know im whining and its really something i shouldn't do. Its a learning curve and i really need to learn faster be more driven everyday to become better. Business is a hard deal. Getting to the right people and getting someone into the business and retaining them is even harder.

I really should stop whining. Tomorrow is a new day.

Oh yeah, i have a girlfriend now. I love her alot but sometimes this double life thing takes a lot of toll. Wish it was simpler. Really wish it was simpler to have her in my life and also tell my mum about it. of course at this moment it is impossible

what has happened?

its been a while since i blogged eh? A lot of things has transpired since then. As you may or may not know, I have a job now. Nope not some Engineering Job, more like a Marketing Exec job. How did I land here?

Oh well first, I went to the Jobs Fair and somehow started talking to this woman, and then she took my details and contact and asked me to come for an interview. Seriously, there were so many of them interviewing with me. Maybe a 100, out of that 20 of us got called back for an induction, then it dropped to 7 and last it dropped down to 4. Want to know why? Because, this is a performance based job. The only reason i took up this job is because of its uncapped salary and the quick promotion through its ranking system. I wont say the job is easy but i wont say its hard either. I am still learning but at the same time, I am seeing my rewards though not much but i can feel the satisfaction of this job. Oh man. There are days where i wished i can give up but due to the dedication and the perseverance of my mentor and manager, i can feel that i am getting better. The undying support of my mother provides the best strength within me.

I hope ill make Deputy Manager soon. Then i can have my own company and people to run the company with. 1.5 years!

i haven't blogged for a long time.

went for an interview today. another one tomorrow. Both are not related to engineering @ all.

I wonder when Tomago will get back to me. They should tell me even if i dont get it right? @ least.

I wonder what is there at ION orchard. I want to take a look.

it is the Fasting month. feel more religious than usual.

but Im still gay though. that has never changed.

Scratchy throat

and running nose. I don't feel at all well.

Started back my marathon training. I look forward to the day where I can finally reach that 5km mark in one running. Lol. I am up to 3km. Just 2 more laps and 5km is in my grasp.

My friend asked me about whether or not i want a relationship. I said to her,"I want a relationship but the thing is, the person that I want to be with needs to be in the same platform or at least the same level as I am and probably have some similarities to me. If not it will never work, no matter how hard I like that person"

Quite matured huh? i reckoned.

I wonder what life has in store for me. hehehe

Family

it is kind if weird how family members become strangers and stranger become our family. I value my strange family more than my blood related families. Weird isn't it?

Anyone feel the same.?

Ghosted

I went out last night with Ira to watch a movie called Ghosted. I must say it was weird to be in a room full of lesbians at first. Thank god Ira was beside me so it made it less uncomfortable. The movie was about getting closure of the love that you lost. Some part of the movie was easy to follow while some was plain confusing. But overall, I felt a tinge of jealousy when the characters met for the first time. Do you want to know why? Because, I want to be able to meet someone that I can fall for instantly when I meet her.

Finally watched the news today. My fears have been confirmed. Noordin Top is still alive somewhere in Indonesia and probably planning future bombings there and only God knows where else. This are the type of people that give religion a bad name. Why do they attack innocent people out at hotels? If they want people to respect our religion, they must learn tolerance and work towards peace. Don't let the rest of us suffer due to your actions.

worry

I didnt go for my gym workout today @ khatib. I think my waist will probably ballooned up to a size 16 if i keep this up. Urgh! @ least I can take care of my mum.

It has been a long week.

I was looking through facebook and I saw on my friend's list, this girl which I had a massive crush on while I was working pre-uni days. I had forgotten how much I had actually liked her till I saw her picture again. Super cute-nerdy girl. My heart beats fast just actually seeing her picture. I hope one day when I have the time i will be able to go back to the place where I used to work and catch a glimpse of her there.

The weather today is sort of depressing. i just wished it started raining already.