my last hurdle

today was the start of my final hurdle before I could feel that roll of paper saying that I am the Undergrad --Bachelor of Engineering (Chemical)

Im feeling a bit surreal now. There is this feeling of terror that seem to overcome me. Am i ready to be an undergrad?

I wish at times I was Logan. Have someone care for me and able to fall asleep on that person while he strokes me to sleep. Have that sense of security with that person.

I was jogging at my normal spot and somehow today's wind was wild. It was blowing everything in its path. Trees shook so hard and the fallen leaves were just being forced to follow the direction of the wind. Will I become that fallen leave? or will i become the trees that stays firm even though it is swayed right and left by that massive wind? You get what I mean?

Live life--Do not think--Just live--