Thursday, April 2, 2009

as much as i can hold it in i shall

its not everyday that i don't feel like im losing my mind. most of the time i actually am.

a stray jacket wrapped around her made it impossible for her to breathe. the reigns of the thick nylon were held tightly around her waist burning her skin as it became inevitable to her that she was trapped. "Argh..let me fucking go!" she screamed aloud to the darkened walls that surround her, unable to restraint herself from the pain that she felt within her. 
"Just let me go,"she finally resigned as the thought of impending and almost inevitable death crossed through her mind.
She closed her eyes thinking of the ones that she was going to leave behind upon her untimely demise. Her parents, siblings and finally her thoughts swayed to the one that she had so desperately wanted to seek comfort in. She remembered her warm tender caress over her delicate skin and the sweet scent that had filled up her days. Her eyes filled with tears as she knew she will never be able to feel her lover in her arms. Her fate had been sealed. 
She was going to die. 
"I want you here with me," she muttered to herself before closing her eyes, finally collapsing due to the sheer exhaustion. 
Silence filled the room.

This is what i do in my spare time. i think its crap! like serious crap. it helps me distress alot. at least i know i am not fully losing my mind this time round. 

I have to work tomorrow but looking at the conditions of the weather nowadays i am not sure whether or not it'll be any good for outside work. Oh well work is work. However, i can't sleep right now. stupid me for drinking tea after dinner. Logan seems to be alive and kicking outside. 

silence and more silence
fill up the empty spaces in between the lines
as i try to make sense of things
that is happening between me and you



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