She could not fall into slumber though she tried her hardest. She lay awake in the semi darkened living room which were cleared of all furnitures, slowly examined the people that seemed deep in their sleep. Her mum laid just next to her as trickling beads of sweat slowly forged on her forehead, but nonetheless she was deep in slumber. It was one of the hottest night she had experienced after quite some time being away from the tropical country that she grew up in. Her shirt was soaked through her skin as she thought about the events that had occured throughout the day, her cousin's engagement, meeting her family members that she had not seen for a period of time.
She had not thought much about the engagement but the chatter that had come with it. She heard her aunts and uncles talking about the "future" of their kids and that included her. She felt her neatly compartmentalised fears slowly resurfacing at that moment as she tried despite her best efforts to integrate with her family, slowly retreating from the conversations. She was tired of the "conditioned" mindset that had been imposed on her since the day she was born. Her throat burned while her heart seems to have shrunken making it harder for her to breathe.
She decided to try to calm herself down. It has been a weird day after all being around that many people after months of solitude. She lay herself down again, her wet body on the carpeted marble floor. She had other things on her mind besides the small chatter of her family members. She said a silent prayer, asking God to illuminate her path and to make it easier for her. Her mind then slowly drifted to a place where she had felt extremely peaceful. Before she knew it, she was dreaming of the place she had softly desireed to be back in.
Oh well, whatever. Tomorrow marks the 3rd week me being back. I better get some more work done. Must really gear up.
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